What Counts As Trauma ??

We are on Earth to feel good. To be our best selves. To understand, with clarity and ease, how abundant and full this life is. So what happens? Why can’t we do this? The short answer is…trauma. Various forms of trauma enter into our lives and they block us and we shut down because our pain body gets activated.

When this happens and we enter a low-vibrational moment of life, our egos are quick to judge ourselves and then we can shut down even further. However, the good news is with this, that we always have the power to move past thing once we move into allowing. Before we can get to allowing, we need to understand the ways in which we are blocking ourselves but not accepting whatever we are feeling is trauma.

So…what counts as trauma? When am I over-reacting and when am I right? At which situations do I feel valid and which ones I don’t? How can I move through this with ease and grace? Watch today’s video for some insights and clarity. :) Sending you all the love and abundance in the world. I hope this serves you.

xx

Erin

 

Black Lives (Still) Matter

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This week there were two more killings of unarmed black men in the United States: Terence Crutcher and Tyree King. Unfortunately, this is not new for the United States.

If you follow me at all, you know I exist in the very “radical” space of believing all bodies are worthy of living safely and peacefully in this realm. If you follow me at all and are white, I’m sure you also identify as non-racist. Which is great! Except for the fact that being a white, United States citizen means we are racist by default because of all that we have access to and the privilege of being white based on the systems of power that are currently in place.

But, again, if you’re following me, you probably already know that. Which is great! Now the next place your mind probably went is: “I’m not like other white people—I get it, I’m already doing my work.” And, you know what? You probably are! Or maybe the narrative that you don’t want to wish violence upon cops is coming up too…guess what I don’t want that either.

But the killings of unarmed Black people in the United States is and always has been out of control. Where did your mind go after that sentence?

Try not to spiral out of control with that thought and everything else that your ego implies and attaches to it. Come back here and just read that sentence as a fact. Because it is.

The next question is…what do we do to move past that? What can white people do in your/our/my individual lives (no matter where you’re/we’re/I’m at in your understanding of racial relations)? What can I do knowing that I will never “graduate” past needing to show up and interrupt all the ways white violence shows up in emotional and physical ways–regardless of how much I believe I personally am not a racist/contributing to racial oppression? What does the word “racist” trigger in me that I cannot go there emotionally? How can I examine myself? In a way that is not debilitating with shame or guilt? What is next for me in my own personal life? How can I continue to unlearn and be better? Read more? Talk to my white friends about being white? Use google (and not asking a Black person to give me an education) to teach myself some things? Call in more compassion for myself and others as I move through this? Sign a petition? Call my government? Something else? Note: answers can and will vary. :)

As usual, #BlackLivesMatter today and every day. Sending peace and blessings and healing to everyone. Love you all!!! ♥️♥️

Full Moon in Pisces September 2016

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Happy Full Moon in Pisces and happy Lunar Eclipse!! The watery, emotional energy of Pisces is in full effect, and as we are in eclipse season, any astrological energy is intensified. No worries though–no astrological anything is stronger than what you decide about yourself and your life; astrology is insights and awareness, not definite truths.

Today’s full moon is also known as the Harvest Moon, as it is the full moon that takes place closest to the Equinox, which occurs on September 22. The Equinox is associated with seasons changing in the physical realm and on Earth, the end of one season and transition into another. Since us beautiful humans are also part of Earth, our own bodies are also preparing for the seasonal change and cycle within us and our own energies.

Pisces energy is very, very emotional. Not just in a “negative” way–they are very tuned in to the other realms and least attached to what is happening in physical reality. They are the dreamers of the zodiac–not in a, “What are your dreams?” way, but more of a, “I can see other realms and this is how and what it feels like,” way. Combine this with the third and final of the three eclipses we have been having and we are in for some major insights. Today we have a lunar eclipse, typically associated with endings. The ending that is brought about with this eclipse paves way for the new energy pulled into our awareness by Pisces moon to enter and be held by us. Since the Universe is always looking out for us, the Virgo sun energy we are in still allows us to be grounded enough to take action and make this new vision part of our reality.

All of that sounds so lovely, doesn’t it?! What a beautiful combination. :) Here are today’s reflective questions:

  1. Pisces energy is constantly in emotional dream land. Not in a negative way, but in a higher realms, truth, dreamy way. What is new to you into your energy field? What is the awareness or theme Pisces has brought to your attention and is now being held in the new moonlight with new eyes, clean energy?
  2. With this new awareness being brought to the light, we can sometimes feel an immediate rush to do something (or a freezing because we are so overwhelmed by the rush). However, as you can see above, today I need to remind you: “We have so much time. We have every lifetime.” There is no need to rush. You are going at the exact perfect pace you need to. With this, what feels like now or never for you? Why?
  3. As a perfect balance to Pisces energy, we are still in Virgo sun, which is to go-getter, baby! Looking at what you wrote for number 3, what are the action steps you need to take? By the way, this could or could not have anything to do with your new awareness. Sometimes when we focus on cleaning up our energy in another area of our life, the clarity moves over to the other areas.
  4. As mentioned in the beginning of my blog post, today is the third and final of the three eclipses we have gone through. Holding holy number 3, we have three months left in 2016 after September closes out. Where were you in three months of this year (March, June, September)? What has happened since? Where has your biggest growth been? How do you want to continue or alter this path for the last 3 months? Remember: you can do or be whatever you want!

Happy Full Moon, everyone! I love you dearly! Remember, you can always email me at contactEEW@gmail.com to set up a private session where we go through these questions together or for private coaching in general. Go out there in that moon today if you can!

Peace and blessings,

xx

Erin

On the Illusion of Frustration with Patience and Waiting

If you are like me (aka a human), and you have ever wanted something, you know that we have to wait for it. One second, one minute, one year, one lifetime. If you are also like me (aka an alien), you know that there exists a place where linear time is not real and waiting is, therefore, not real.

Now, on Earth, there are things we wait for that we don’t mind or notice we are waiting for. However, when the waiting is connected to our worth or we have given our personal power away to it or we are attached to the outcome of it, this is when we feel frustration and anxiety in the waiting. Which is all ego, of course, by the way.

In today’s video, I will give you a bit of info breaking down the false pain associated with waiting and some ways to move through the process with more ease and trust. I hope this serves you. :)

Blessings to you and yours,

xx

Erin

New Moon in Virgo September 2016

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We are now in the 9th month of a 9 year (2+0+1+6=9). 9 is the number of closing and wrapping up, of releasing and ending. Combo that with the eclipse that we are having today AND the New Moon and the message couldn’t be more clear: the pain you are going through right now is necessary releasing. If you want the abundance and peace narrative to be able to enter your life, you must be willing to go through the pain that is the leaving of the lack and chaos narrative. None of it is in vain! I can promise you this.

Eclipses push us to the end of a cycle. Depending on where you are at with your specific energy, this may feel like a mild case of letting go…but more likely with everything happening this may feel like the most fucking intense letting go you’ve ever done 😉 But guess what? You’re alive, and as long as you’re alive everything is okay!! Promise.

Okay so, 9 year, eclipse, New Moon in Virgo, and mercury retrograde…how can we best utilize this energy to our advantage? 9 year: we know something is closing; eclipse: we are on the brink of it closing; New Moon in Virgo: we have the hard-working and dilligent energy of Virgo to help close it; mercury retrograde: we are given ample time to go inward to see how we can best close it.

Today’s reflective questions!:

  1. What’s coming up for you that you need to close? How have you given away your personal power by blaming Mercury Retrograde for where you’re at?
  2. What is your role in what you wrote for number 1? What do you need to do to release this role that is not serving you? (Note: sometimes the role is as simple as still holding the energy for longer than you need to be.)
  3. Virgo works hard af. Like actually the hardest. Eclipses are like, really though, this is the end. So what do you need to change? What do you need to be or do different?
  4. How does what you wrote for taking responsibility for yourself and what you need to differently link? How do they connect? What is the lesson for you? Right now and also more broadly?

Because we are in 9-9, I also recommend writing intention for this month! Super powerful. Lastly, I need to tell you that Mercury Retrograde is not a curse; do not project unnecessary fear onto your life during this time. Use it as a blessing to dip into the infinite oasis that is you(r soul).

I love you deeply and dearly!

xx

Erin

The Holiness That Is Our Spiritual Wounding

We are on Earth to heal. And we are on Earth to feel. And we are on Earth to purge every spot of false lie that we are not enough and that we are somehow a fault of creation or that we are anything besides unconditional love. On the soul level we know this, but because we also have a body that has to live in Earth reality, the dense emotions of pain, jealousy, abandonment, and loss also live within us.

Most of us have been brought up with the teachings that these emotions need to be avoided at all costs. That these emotions and the spiritual wounding they are connected to are somehow more powerful than us and can somehow control us more than the desire to transcend them. This is false. Our spiritual wounding is one of the holiest gifts we are given on Earth. It is never only to punish us or make us doubt ourselves. It is only to allow us to learn our lessons and to connect with those who hold the same wounds as us and wish to transcend them with us.

Our wounds are a gift from Thee Most High to teach us the lessons we are must stubborn about and have the hardest time allowing ourselves to learn. The sooner you are able to move your ego out of the way and believe and trust in this, the sooner you will be free. Okay, so, kinda buy it but kinda don’t? Check out today’s video where I break it down even further:

Love you!! Great job always :)

xx

Erin

 

Full Moon in Aquarius August 2016

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You don’t want it anymore, do you? It is time now. Time to put it down and be free. You’ve been carrying it for so long, and it seemed like it was serving you during the fun Leo energy, but now that we are in humanitarian-focused Aquarius moon energy, we can feel we don’t actually want it. Let it be done. You deserve to feel free.

Not only do we have a Full Moon, but we also have an eclipse–which is great news! The full moon is about releasing something, and the eclipse typically shows us something from our past that is it time to let go of now. Combine these two, and we get what this full moon’s energy is all about–releasing and then receiving for the benefit and highest good of all involved.

If you’ve been feeling “insane” lately or outside of yourself or like what the actual fuck is going on, don’t worry–this has all been your energy preparing for a purge…the purge. Life is a cycle of movements and growing and releasing and letting go. Full moons are the end of something, and this full moon is one of those ends.

With all this info, here are reflective questions:

  1. What popped into your head as you were reading paragraph number 1? This is your intuition telling you that THAT is what you need to put down. Trust it. Write it out. Look at it. And ask yourself why you need to put it down (aka how has it been harming you/those around you in whatever ways)?
  2. Once you have held and realized what you need to put down from question number 1, what will this create space for in your life? Remember, you can only receive once you release something. What is your intention to now receive?
  3. Aquarius is about the collective energy of All That Is and being in service of this. What is your role in the collective energy? What are you here to serve as? Show up as? Be for yourself and others?
  4. Look at what you wrote for questions two and three. How do they connect? In what ways is your new layer of life going to add to your mission of how you serve the collective? (Note: don’t get thrown off by the word “mission”–can be as big or as small or as (whatever) you like! Your life, your rules!)

And here are some affirmations for today:

“I know what I want. I welcome whatever serves me and all around me to enter my life. I am a valuable and important addition to the collective conscious. I am consistently showing up as my highest vibration and clarity. I am here to serve–but never at the expense of myself. It is easy for me to release that is through teaching me and therefore does not add positively to my energy anymore.” Amen and ameen.

Happy Full Moon, everyone! It is time. I hope you are extra kind to yourself today!!

Love you,

xx

Erin

New Moon in Leo August 2016

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Leo season  is here, and she roars. She makes her presence known. She knows what she wants, and she gets it, and she does it well. This is a stark distinction between the Cancer energy that is so deeply rooted in emotions and feeling–which isn’t a bad thing, just very different energies. Leo demands we show up and take action to be our best selves after a period of feeling all the feelings. That’s what this New Moon is about.

Additionally, we are in 8 month of the calendar year. 8 is the symbol of infinity, and it is a number associated with balance and healing. When turned sideways, the 8 loops itself in its two halves and therefore represents the dual nature of all things. Please keep in mind we hold the dual nature of all things in our bodies, but we tend to focus on one side over the other depending on the beliefs we hold about ourselves. This Leo New Moon is about owning ALL that we are and no longer choosing to judge it. After all, Leo makes the best of all that is given to her. :)

For today’s reflective questions:

  1. What’s an area of your life you are #LeoAF in and you know it? Aka an area you feel confident? The best? Like no one can tell you shit about it? What do you do to be the best in this area? What does it feel like? No right or wrong answers. No limits as to what the answer can be. :)
  2. No shame or self-judgment for this question, but what is an area of your life you don’t feel so #LeoAF? It can be a physical/non-physical quality, something you already do, something you don’t do at all. No right or wrong answers. No limits as to what the answer can be. :) After you’ve identified the first part of the question, what do you need to do to become more #LeoAF regarding this?
  3. Before you answer this question, say the following prayer: “I forgive myself and release any judgement or attack on myself or others when I was answering question 2. Amen and ameen.” Okay: was question number 1 or question number 2 harder to answer? Why?
  4. For this question, read the first part and then sit with it with eyes closed for 30 seconds to a minute and really allow answers, images, and visions to flow to you. Ready?: What are you on Earth to do? To be? To create? To exist as? To be unapologetic about? Sit with this and remember Leo energy is NOT here to play small. :) After you took time to hold it, answer it the question, but in I AM and present tense. For example, “I am healthy, whole, and sound. I am happy and taken care of financially running my own business. I create art and it is received well.” You are deserving!!

All my love and blessings to you as usual!! Until next month,

xx

Erin

Full Moon In Capricorn July 2016

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Capricorn is one of those signs that always is teaching me by exposing parts of my shadow self to me. Capricorn is the energy of diligence and excellence. Of doing it and doing it so well the first time you never even have to think if you have to do this again. When you are near Capricorn energy, you will begin to see the ways in which you are not holding yourself accountable to you to be and do your best. Not in a shaming way…but in a way that Capricorn reflects back to you your highest potential.

With this, we know that Full Moons are incredibly intense energy, so if you’ve been feeling a bit drama lately, no worries. This is normal and allowed. Since Capricorn is so good at getting shit done in an incredibly well-done way, this is a perfect full moon to release that which you have been holding on to but does not serve you any further.

Reflective questions for the Full Moon:

  1. Where have you not been showing up as your best self? This isn’t a time for shaming–it is a time to hold this area to the light and release it–F I N A L L Y. This is most likely something you have been meaning to let go of for a long time but continue to excuse away for some reason. No more–what is it?
  2. Based on what you wrote for number 1, how can you finalize letting this energy go? What type of ritual or significant action can you take to tap into the abundance of the Universe to show her you are committed to letting go? Write a letter and (safely) burn it? Get rid of something? Delete something? Cord cutting? Something else? Trust the beautiful body wisdom that comes forth to guide you.
  3. When you give yourself permission to release, you are simultaneously giving yourself permission to receive. What do you want to receive? What filling energy or thing do you wish to call into your life through the diligence of Capricorn energy?
  4. Capricorn is miserable when it gives away its power by not doing something but Capricorn also makes itself crazy by doing too much. Understanding this very real energy and also understanding old patterns that we need to push through and break are here and now–how does this apply to your life? What do you need to balance? What do you need to change? What do you need to (not) do?

As usual, all my love and support. Full moon blessings to you and yours. You can do it!!

xoxo,

Erin

Owning Our Whiteness: A Dialogue

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Out of the hundreds of hours I have facilitated dialogue on white privilege, the number one place where growth stops and shut down occurs is when the guilt, fear, and stories of the (white) ego get louder than the pain stories of the racial injustice. Hands down, every time.
I truly believe we are at the tipping point for racial justice, but I still see so much fear and doubt in self when we are asked to have this conversation, white people. It is time for us to own our whiteness: to take responsibility for ourselves, to stop using our fear/guilt as an excuse, and to transmute what we have inherited and what we still benefit from today. If you are white and you feel you have been called to do something but you don’t know what or are uncomfortable, I invite you to please consider joining this free call I am hosting. The owness is on us. Not talking about it and not doing something is not an option anymore. We must name, transmute, and release this guilt if we want to be able to show up for the black bodies that have been asking us to for decades and generations.
I will be going over white privilege 101, how reverse racism can never and will never be real, the most common false phrases heard in racial dialogue, and then there will be time for questions and sharing of ANY capacity. This is not a space to shame you. It is a space for us to take ownership of all they ways we have been socialized into racism and being racist. The call is free, but if you attend (or if you don’t), please consider donating $10-$25 to one of the countless funds set up for families for those recently murdered, non-profits/organization specifically created to support black and brown people, or one of the black people providing a free education to all of us on the internet every day for us–as well as reading at least one article by a black person if you haven’t done so already.

Also please note because I was socialized as a white US citizen, the context of this conversation will be about the ways in which race has been constructed and exists in the United States. Email me at contactEEW@gmail.com to sign up—both of the calls will be the same content. Tuesday 12 July noon or 8 PM EST. Free and accessible worldwide.
Of course, I am open to any and all feedback or discussion. Blessings + love to all. #BlackLivesMatter ♥️